I am a girl.

Yes it is true. I am a girl, who is in college. I tend to think I am always right. Some days I don't find it necessary to get out of my bed and ready for the day. I may not understand everything going on around me. I am blonde at heart. Being 5.8 miles away from home is crazy to me. Maybe in the future I can live further away but not now. Get over it. I don't always look beautiful. I like to have the music up as loud as it will go. I sing to myself even though I know I don't have an amazing voice. I do have emotions. I love my to-do list. I have had anxiety attacks. I wish I could handle everything but I'm not super women. I'm not a Victoria Secrets model. I love American Sign Language. I usually know what I want. But I'm subject to change at any point I choose. Chick flicks are my favorite. Death does not sound great. I may sometimes wonder about the day I get married. I day dream when I should be focused. I love to talk. :) I'm a poor college student. I may cry a lot. But this is who I am. I make funny faces. I don't wear make up everyday. And if you don't like me at my worst you don't deserve my best.

Craziest weekend for sure!

11/11/11-I made a wish. Haha. :) Just thought you should know. And I went to this huge dance party with two guys from my English class. I had a good, honestly I thought I would hate it but I didn't. Which is great. I needed to go out. Sometimes I forget that I'm in college and need to live the college experience. I like to hid in my rooms most day.

Well Thanksgiving break is arriving slowly, which means I have tons of stuff to do. One of which was my Media Assignment for English. It turned out alright.

Frustration. Grr. I can't get my video on this post!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zr-FiG4qoH4

Go watch it! :) Sorry i can't just get it to work on here.

Anyways I hope you are having a fantastic week. I know it's going to be crazy but remember to smile.

"Focus more on your desire than on your doubt, and the dream will take care of itself. You may be surprised at how easily this happens. Your doubts are not as powerful as your desires, unless you make them so."

And when you don't feel grateful just go write a list of 30 things you are thankful for. I did that the other day. I'll post them later. It will give you a different outlook on your life right now.

How I see me.

My days seem to be always filled with something to do. School and homework are the big ones. But as I have been finishing up my English project I realized that when I define who I am the people in my life are the people that define WHO I AM.

I want someone to love me

For who I am.

I want someone to need me.

Is that so bad?

I want someone to love me

For who I am.

Nothing makes sense.

Nothing makes sense anymore.

Nothing is right.

Nothing is right when you're gone.

Losing my breath.

Losing my right to be wrong.

I'm frightened to death.

I'm frightened that I won't be strong.

Thank you Nick Jonas-Who I am.

It was a great day when I realized I'm so thankful for the people that have affected my life. Whether you were a good or bad influence you have shaped me today. And I like to think that i'm doing pretty good here in life. It's not easy at all. Sometimes I wish I knew how, what, when things were going to happen or turn out. But it's the struggle of life right?

"Conquer the devils with a little thing called love." Bob Marley

The next few weeks are going to be crazy. End of semester is coming up, I have tons of things due before Thanksgiving Break. I believe that the Library is going to see me a lots the next 2 weeks. I'll let you know how I'm doing maybe in the middle of the time if I can remember and not completely lost in the fact I might die. haha.

It's bitter cold outside. I wish it would warm up. It's a lot easier to want to go to class when it's warm. I signed up for next semester. Woot! ASL II, Sociology, English, Math, American Heritage = 18 credit hours. I could die. We will see how that works. :)

Bachelor of Arts in Deaf Studies

We all know that I'm going to get my Masters in Counseling. But I really want to get my certificate for interpreting. Well I need to sign up for all my classes on the 7th so I really need to know what I need for that stuff. Because I REALLY need to get my certificate from UVU. I don't even care if I get close to my Masters here because I need my Bachelor of Arts in Deaf Studies-Emphasis in Interpreting. So much to figure out. On top of all my homework I need to figure out before the weekend so that I have a nice little weekend. Since DahLynn is here. I'm probably going to go home again for the weekend. Not that it's that far. But still. Haha. I have to plan to go there. Anyways semester is quickly ending. It ends next month. And MY BIRTHDAY is at the end of the month! Woot! I'm very excited I'm not going to lie. It will be the best. I really have a fear people will forget my birthday. Ha.

Happy Halloween 2011 :)

I know that everyone has been celebrating Halloween since Friday. But today is the official day! Woot!

I'm really excited for tonight. I'm going to the Haunted Forest with Annie, Bryson, DahLynn! It's going to be such a party. I'm totally freaked out though. Ugh. I get scared so easy. This will be interesting for sure. I'll let you know how much I scream. Lol. Well Nicole and I are/were cowgirls. So stinkin' cute!

Some people dressed up at school. Pure enjoyment of seeing random people dressed up. Haha. It's so different then elementary school(all for fun), jr high (the contest) high school (you can be the biggest slut and not get kicked out of school), college (whatever you want).

Happy Halloween! Enjoy what you do, be safe.

I love you Uncle Joey! It's been 19 years since you pasted away. I know you've been watching over me even a month before I came to Earth. 30 days after you passed on I came to this Earth.

Eagles-Desperado. Your favorite.

Congrats!

I just want to take this time to Congrats Zack on his mission call to Kampala, Uganda mission.

So crazy!! :) He leaves April 19Th 2012. Last night was a crazy party. I was dying in my classes knowing that it was coming and I wanted to know where he would be going.

Everyone was crying completely silent after he announced where he would be going. Totally in shock that he really will be leaving.

He walked in to his house... We were matching... He even agreed to take a picture of us matching. I was totally bummed that we match though. Haha.

Haha now it's funny. Congrats Zack! Can't wait to hear all your stories!!

Out of State?

The past few weeks, I can't shake this one thought that I have. Unfortunate for me, the thought is becoming much stronger. First it came out as an idea. That I laughed at. How could I ever leave my family. I come home pretty much every weekend.

Now it has become a bigger thought. As I was heading on to BYU campus tonight to play volleyball with my second family. I realized BYU is not the place for me at all. I thought I would transfer there after UVU to get my masters right?

I dk though. I just have the strongest feeling that I need to finish up my schooling out of state. I don't know why or when or WHERE. But the big man upstairs is putting it into my thoughts. So I'm going to think about it more, pray, research. Maybe get some answers. I'm not a hundred percent sure of what is to come. But there is one school that kept coming up tonight as I did a little research. Stanford. That's not a for sure though. It's a thought. That I will pray a lot about.

Who knows maybe God is just preparing me for when I get married and my husband needs to go to school out of state. Or I'll meet him out of state.

Gosh dang it. More questions to think about

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Isn't that so big?? Where do I even start to think about. Cali, WA, Wis, CT, FL, DC